my new “drugs”. hahahaha.

Hey guys! check this out. i think the song is super cool! very energetic and definitely enjoyable hehehehehe. i love it! i’ve been playing it over and over again since just now. please youtube it hehehehe. Well, for who I’m directing the song is not important ^0^ the answer is only with me. HAHAHAHAHA! *evil’s laugh*

The lyric itself is so catchy! i love it xD but joseph doesn’t like it cos she thinks it’s too noisy ^^” hehehehhee.. dun worry girl… i know u only love chinese songs! HAHAHAHHAHA. love u, babe! u ironed my shorts! so proud of u! ow yea, i copied the lyrics from the www.azlyrics.com the lyrics are damn nice right? hehehehehe.

“Untouched”

I go ooh ooh, you go ah ah
lalalalalalalala

I can’t lie lie lie lie lie lie
I wanna wanna wanna get get get what I want
Don’t stop
Give me give me give me what you got got
Cause I can’t wait wait wait any more more more more
Don’t even talk about the consequence
Cause right now you’re the only thing that’s making any sense to me
And I don’t give a damn what they say, what they think think
Cause you’re the only one who’s on my mind
I’ll never ever let you leave me
I’ll try to stop time for ever, never wanna hear you say goodbye (bye bye bye)

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can’t resist you
It’s not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can’t forget you
Been going crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched
And I need you so much

See you, breathe you, I want to be you
Alalalala alalalala
You can take take take take take time time
To live live the way you gotta gotta live your life
Give me give me give me all of you you
Don’t be scared
I’ll see you through the loneliness of one more more more
Don’t even think about what’s right or wrong, wrong or right
‘Cause in the end it’s only you and me and no one else is gonna be around
To answer all the questions left behind
And you and I are meant to be so even if the world falls down today
You’ve still got me to hold you up up
And I will never let you down (down)

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can’t resist you
It’s not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can’t forget you
Been going crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched, untouched, untouched, untouched, untouched
Alalalala alalalala
Untouched
Alalalala alalalala

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can’t resist you
It’s not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can’t forget you
Been going crazy from the moment I met you

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can’t resist you
It’s not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can’t forget you
Been going crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched, untouched, untouched

So, this is my new “drugs” LOL!!!

excited but yet doubtful.

Gosh time sure flies it’s July 2009 now. Then I’m going to university in Aug’09, which is next month. I’ve always wondered how does it feel to enter university. hahahahaha. watch too many movies, i guess. i don’t know whether i can cope with the studies or not, but hopefully i can! hehehehehehe. Some will go overseas to pursue their education like my beloved Karen! hahahahaha. going to miss her like crazy man! but no worries. We’ll do our very best to keep in touch. hehehehe.

Haih… my initial plan of spending my july hol by going to beach area for relaxing is spoilt due to the swine flu that’s so sad! but oh well, spending time with joseph is quite fun too! silly girl, as always! xp hahahahaha. maybe we should go to the beach! play and swim. hehehehe. oh yea! we r planning to swim on thurs with her classmate. hehehehhe. guess slimming down plan is kicking off soon! hahahahahhaa.

Also, today was my last day working! hahahahaha. I’m very grateful for the experience and all the guidance in that place. it’s truly an enriching experience! had so much fun with my colleagues and my funny-crazy-but-super-nice supervisor! hahahahaha. after this, i’m quite free then heheheehhe. i have to settle all the university stuffs.

I also just bought a super nice blazer and a pair of cheap and nice black shoes! hahahahaha. quite satisfied! cos i’ve been looking for a nice blazer for so long! heheheehhe. and i finally found one yay! cool right? going to hunt for some nice and affordable clothes again!

Slowly but steadily, I know I can get up from my downfall and walk towards my dream though a lot of things had happened within these 2 years, but they taught me that much too in life. For the beginning, of course, I’ll keep on grumbling and brooding over it. Then, it’s only after some time, I can slowly accept it. hehehehe. Gosh too many things to be told ey. hehehehe. let all the things i know remain in my heart. These 2 years have been turbulent but i hope I’ll become stronger and not weaker. I wanna be like my dad, always so kind to his friends. always reach out to help others. Even in times of difficulties, he stays strong. I never know how is his feeling when he is down. how dissapointed he is when he is cheated by people he trusts. Regardless of whatever happens, he always priotises his children. ^^ I’ll always be so proud of him! (Though he’s soooooo stubborn! LOL! yeah that’s the bad habit of him.) I also wanna be like my mom, a very strong woman! wonderwoman! LOL! able to live by herself (though i know she feels so lonely all the time). able to overcome so many difficulties! she’s just superb! hahahahahaha! i wanna be like her. when her husband is in his down moment, she is there to be his pillar of support. she is just always there. ain’t that cool?
Hm btw, i just bought this packets of korean instant noodles. gosh! i kept on looking at them k. drools! hahahahahaha. but everytime i wanna eat it, i remember my mom always nags me,” tiwi, stop eating! *at the same time, snatch the food away from my hands* -_-”" no more eating after 9pm!” gosh! can you believe it? i’m deprived, man. lol. I wanna eat steamboat buffet too! (mich, kukus sampan yuuuuuk!) LOL! yummy! then what else do i wanna eat a….? hmm… korean food! xD then i saw this italian instant spaghetti ramen too! gosh! it looks good on the pic but then not sure bout the taste though. hahahahaha. greedy me! x)

K then, I shall blog til here for today. Will blog again next time when I feel like writing and have things to tell. hehehehehe.

just to write something.

Last night, I dreamt of meeting my godma. I was crying so bitterly while hugging her. I have not seen her for the longest time ever and I couldn’t stop crying. So bitter to the extent that i couldn’t even breathe. I kept on saying i miss her so much and that’s all i could utter. I have not experienced such a loss before. This is the first time and it pains til now. Gosh I swear I’m confused and at some point in time in my life, I wish I’m living a simple and happy life. I don’t wanna come to the place where I am now. I wanna spend my days with her, my parents and brothers. I’d rather stay in my hometown and pursue my dream to be someone useful for the less fortunate people like a doctor. so noble and cliche. i know. This is a childhood dream and i guess it won’t come true. Well, at least i could spend my time with them and just be what i aspire to be.

What I think of this world nowadays really makes me sick. sick of this materialism thing. sick of unhealthy competition. sick of backstabbers. sick of envious people. you don’t know whom you should rely on. whom you should trust. damn it! we only live once in this world, please be nice and kind, people!

12.12 am in the morning

Hi everybody..

Good morning
Well, some of you must be in your own La La land right now while the few others may be still awake surfing the Internet or chatting. For me, I’m gonna write something bout my feelings.

After I got home, i took a detour around my house. Well, my house is definitely not a big house but I just wanted to notice something that would remind me of her, my beloved godma. But, there was nothing. Ok, there is nothing to be sad bout that. I’m totally fine with it. I know she has reached a better place. It’s just that I miss her, as always. I want her to see me coming home this time for a longer period as I had promised her four years ago. Things change at home and I have also changed. I just hope it is for the better.

For some people who have defamed her, i hope they’d take a few minutes to reflect on themselves. I bet what she had done for me and my family is so much more than what they could ever imagine. They couldn’t care less bout my family. But, she cared! She definitely wins them hands down. Shame on them! They won’t read this anyway, but I just want to say it. *Phew.. What a relief for saying it out*

I’m not gonna feel disappointed with what you (”you” here only refers to someone whom i think will know that I’m talking bout him) had done. What is done is done. Sorry is only meaningful if you know your mistakes and you will do your very best not to repeat it again. That is a true meaning of sorry. Break the leg for this year!

some things are better best forgotten

Being too dependent on others to make myself happy, only ends up hurting even more.

No, it’s not about the heartbeat romeo lover.

Humans are flawed.

Some of them just give up and do not take chances and risks.

Disappointment just plays its role.

It’s time to let go

cause some things are better best forgotten.

Don’t worry, beloved godma. I’ll never forget you. You are inside me. If I forget you, it means I’ve lost myself.

o iya!

Btw, gw blm blog ttg ultah gw ya…

hahahahaha. Well, my birthday was superb Hahahaha. I enjoyed myself Thank you for everything k! But the funniest part was I discovered Yindy, Joseph, karen, ndaa, santy and dung standing outside ndaa’s room to surprise me with a cute lil nice bday cake. Hahahahaha. I couldn’t stop myself from laughing because this reminded me of what happened last year XD Hahahahaha.

Last year,…..

"I just woke up from my peaceful sleep and wanted to go toilet, then when i opened the door, i found karen was sort of bowing in front of my room trying to hang a shirt they designed on their own which is supposedly my bday pressent. She was stunned and just freezed there, i think. Hahahahaha. Then I gathered my thoughts and realised that it was meant to be a surprise! Hahahaha."

I don’t know why I always find out the surprise they want to make for me. Hahahaha. Also, Yindy and joseph spread rumor that I, being a thick-skin girl, purposely waited for them til 12 am cause I know they will celebrate my birthday. That’s so unfair! Hahahaha. I don’t like to be waken up while I’m having my "beautiful" sleep so I’d rather stay up late and they accused me of such thing. T_T but, nevermind. Tiwi, being a patient and very tolerating person *grins*, will forgive them. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I know they’ll kill me when they read this. Hahahahahahaha.

By the way, I’m so bored right now. I know, I’m supposed to be studying for Prelims. But have you ever heard of an illness called laziness? Hahahahahaha. Nooooooooooooooooooo! I’ve been infected by josephine! Hahahahhaha. Happy birthday, joseph! Muach! I love you, girl! Hahahahahaha. BTW, josephine cooked a plate of noodle for me on my birthday! To tweeeeeeet! Thank you, joseph agogo ^0^ Hahahahaha. I love all the presents my friends gave me x) a poem which is made by himself especially dedicated for me, his good friend! ( HA! See.. I’m such a nice person xD ) three books which I’ve been dreading to read. A musical box? Instrument? I don’t know what to call it. But it’s nice! A mushroom thingy! So cute! Hahahahahaha. A Pucca! And of course, chocolates! Cards! and other stuffs. Hahahahaha. I love people’s messages and bday wishes for me. So sweet Thank you guys. Hahahahahaha.

Mengapa gw makin dewasa makin mls belajar ya….? This is a degadration of human being. Tapi, kenapa kita bisa mls? Dr mana dtgny?

Ya dari diri sendiri la ya…!

Hahahahaha. Gw da error ne… Nanya sendiri, jawab sendiri. Hahahaha.

O ya, today is my big bro’s birthday!

Happy birthday, ko! Hahahahaha. Ingat gw ditraktir ya wkt ketemu tar. Hehehehe. Mg2 sukses selalu ya… Sehat selalu.. Panjang umurnya… Happy trus Love you to the bits!

Ne gw kasih kue favorit keluarga kita, TIRAMISU! Hahahaha. Tar lu ke Sing, gw beliin yg asli d… Hehehehehe.

*hugs*

Btw, tiramisuny keliatan enak banget ya… bikin ngiler aja…

hehehehehe.

blue blue sky..

that’s where I wanna be.

Hey.. I found a new nice song again!

I just heard this new song called "I’m yours" by Jason Mraz. The music is very bubbly? hahahaha. I don’t know but it sounds so cute and I just love it, i guess ^^ Hahahahaha. Now, I keep on listening to this song over and over again.

" I won’t hesitate no more, no more

  It cannot wait, I’m yours"

This part is so meaningful I want to be part of this world. I want to live life like how he depicts it. Blend with the nature.

I love this song. The melody is nice and relaxing. ^^

So, here is the lyric. Enjoy! ^0^

"I’m Yours" - Jason Mraz

went out today…

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! today I went out to bugis cause someone called me saying that i was nominated to get a complimentary pass for some club. Hahahaha. Though we didn’t get the chance to walk around there but oh well, we enjoyed ourselves. Hahahaha.
Must mug later on to redeem the time lost although according to econs, the opportunity costs incurred when working time is lost is not redeemable. Hahahaha.
I want more shirts! when i open my wardrobe, I feel like I always wear the same thing when I go out. But then, it may be just my feeling. u know, when you study hard and u always feel that you need something to make yourself happy by buying things u like. Hahahahaha. It’s so living-in-my-own-world!

O yea, my parents came last week or this week, i forgot. But, everything is so different after she’s gone. The link between me and my parents are just not there. I doubt maybe it’s because we live quite far from each other and so many problems happened that we tend to keep things from each other. I don’t know what to say. By the way, we had a huge row on that day but it was resolved on that day as well. My father has changed. There is no doubt that he’s still the person whom I admired the most but he looked so worn out. He looked so tired. My heart crumbled when I saw that face. Oh well, life is life. What is done is done. She leaving us is irrevocable too. So what’s left is just the courage to move on. It’s hard but it all comes back to time. As time goes by, maybe my family and I will be just like what it used to be. Whether it will go back or not, I also don’t know. I hope somehow someday I’ll be able to find that courage ^^

Today, I kept on thinking about her.

Adding to something about fire, totally caught my attention and now, here I am, remorsing again.

I’m dumb.

a “long” break….

Three days doing nothing except slacking…

OMG! Don’t let any of my teachers know this or else they can strangle me T_T

But, I did something fruitful yesterday

I learnt playing badminton. Hehehehehe. Weeeeeeeeee! But before that, I went for jogging then I played basketball! weeeeeeeeeeeeee! I enjoyed my day so much

Then today, 11th August 08, I studied! Yay! Finally.. hahahahhaa.. Today, I studied chemistry

Going to study econs later. Econs is actually quite interesting. I found myself amused everytime I read something bout econs. hahahahhaha.

But, I’m hungry right now

I want to eat corn soup! CORN! CORN! CORN! CORN!

Hahahahaha.

i want to be hugged by my godma. That’s my birthday wish. I really miss her. To her:"I’m going to be 19 soon! ^^ Yay! wish you were here"